I don't belong in this world and I am becoming more and more convinced of this. Nothing earthly will ever satisfy me and I know it. If I look around and find that none of my self desires can be fulfilled then I can conclude that I was not made for here. I was created by God in the beginning to be with him and dwell in his holy place. That is why everything I have tried to find complete and unbridged happiness in fails. That is the reason for my searching and now I know the answer.
Like any question concerning my meaning in life, Jesus is the answer. He is the only way to life and truth. To serve him is all I desire because it is the only way to insure joy and significance. My life is nothing without the beautiful blood of Christ and I will serve him always!
I am not beautiful in my self. The only thing desirable about me is Jesus. Inner beauty: no such thing! We are sinners and sin taints. Sin makes lovely things ugly. Jesus comes in and remakes lives. He makes things ravishing that without him would be a total mess. Like my life, this world is not what it should be. It is marked as unlovely by the blemishes it possesses and if we think it is going to get better by "going green" or saving wildlife, we are tragically mistaken. Helping starving people get clean water and the nutrition they need is not nearly enough either. "The poor you will always have with you..." (Matthew 26:11) Sure food and water ease the pain for a little while, but it is only temporary. Share the story of Jesus with them, and you give them an undying hope that no amount of suffering can take away from them. If you really want to help them and if you really love them, you will want more for them than just a mist that fades quickly. When you tell them of Jesus and the promise that he gives, you give them life everlasting! That is what I will strive to do until my dying day. That is the only way to become beautiful and the only way to find happiness. A happiness that you can share is real and true!

So thankful I woke up this morning, have a loving family who wants to please God, and that I have legs to walk through God's creation. How much to I take for granted? I have no reason to complain.
"I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want."- Philippians 4:12
The answer is Jesus and knowing His great and overflowing love!
Sometimes I just want to know that there is a man out there that loves me and will forever (besides my dad and other family members). When all the world, it seems, is in a relationship and flaunts the "fun" they have together, its difficult not to get down.
But what about this Jesus? This holy being that came to be a man, because He loves me and forever will. How about His love? That is sufficient for me. Right now, I'm young and need only Jesus and his direction in my life.
No matter what the world tries to tell me, no one person can ever fill that gap.
My love is Jesus.
Thanks for loving me.

It has been a while since I have posted anything, but it's ok! I'm not dead! It's kinda nice not being famous or having a lot of followers. I would hate to have to keep up with all this technology. What's the point of it all? The whole lot of it depends on computers and if they all were destroyed, what would people do with their lives?
People miss the point of life! The ones that have sight don't see the joys that are right in front of their faces! The ones that hear don't even stop to listen to the birds or the laughter of a little one.
"If we all live for something, then we won't die for nothing." That is one of the lines in song sung by Sonic Flood. And how true is it? We sit around in school and at home and waste our lives away.
I feel so suffocated in this American life! I was raised in Benin, West Africa for four and a half years and I was so young I didn't realize the greatness of it all! I wanted so badly to be in America, now I can't wait to get out! I can think of no place I would rather be than in Benin right now.
It's funny. When you grow up a missionary kid, you never really have a home. When I am here, in America, I want sooo badly to be in Benin! But when I'm in Benin, I want to be with my family. Something I want all the time, though, is to further God's kingdom and show everyone His love! That, I can do where ever I am! And I love the Lord for giving me the opportunities I do!

I made a head-band and scarf all from an old t-shirt today! I plan to discover more fun things to make to get my mind off things... Use what God has given you! :)

What can I do, but sing His praise? Everything else feels like a waste of time now. What can compare to the love I feel for Jesus and the love He gives me? And when others complement me, what can I say? For it is God who is everything good in me! I had no part in what I look like, or what I am talented at or anything else for that matter.

My God is awesome and He reigns in our hearts. He is (and will be) alive and well, forever. And He is jealous for me and He will come back for me. He will not forsake me. For I know that whatever happens, my heart is His forever. He is the love song I'll sing forever.

How can I contain this joy? I hope His love is shown through me, and that I am showing others a tiny bit of what God is like. Because once you find Him, it shows.

Today, is a new day.
Full of new opportunities. Full of new chances. Full of new ways to show God's love.
Today, I want to explore those new places. I want others to feel how I feel about Jesus. And I want to be used by God.
But enough of this talk! How many times have I said I was going to do something and failed to live it out? No more!
Today, I am a new person. Living out what I dream, seeking the lost, and finding the ones. The ones I'm here to love.

"I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you." John 14:18

Lately, me (and a few of my friends) have been talking crazy, as my dad calls it. Hours and hours have been spent studying, and talking about God's word and His plans for our lives. I have noticed a change in my life, even though it hasn't been very long since we started talking as a group, and I know he has BIG plans for us! I can feel a pull towards mission work in Africa and I don't know how to handle the excitement I have about my future. When my friends and I come together and speak of His love, compassion and grace I am filled with an everlasting joy that can not be replaced by anything of this world.  Knowing God and His love, then realizing so many people don't know what they are missing out on breaks my heart! For some ignorance will mean death and I am not content knowing I could do more for those people. God tells us to love others as we love ourselves. That's that. It doesn't say, sometimes love others as yourself. It doesn't say, when it's convenient to you... Myself doesn't want ignorance to be the death of me, so why should I let others fall when I could have prevented it? 

'...“The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few."' Hang in there everyone! You are one of God's favorites! (But then again, aren't we all!) How great is the Father's love for us?!?! ♥ Matthew 9:37